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Aw, crap; There she goes again...
Topic Started: Oct 31 2012, 01:32 AM (201 Views)
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Heather returned to her apartment after weathering out Hurricane Sandy with Benjamin Young and his son Klayton. As she turned her key, memories of what started out as an innocent trip to a hotel room to console a friend turned into two nights of… She forces the thought out of her head as quickly as she allows it to enter. Kingsley bounds into the apartment as the door opens, heading straight for his food bowl. Heather chuckles as her pooch digs into the food he had clearly missed.

Heather sinks into her couch as her thoughts begin to overwhelm her. There was definitely a physical connection between her and Benjamin. They both loved music, too and were constantly jamming. She like his son too, which was a bonus for her. Children at Klayton’s age were usually getting difficult, but Klayton was a good kid.

But all the while she was with Benjamin, she found her thoughts drifting back to Aaron Weston. Where he was. Who he was with. What he was doing. Wondering if he was getting through Sandy okay. Everytime she thought of Aaron, she remembered their brief interludes and the earth-stopping feelings she got when they made physical contact. She bit her lip. The memories of that contact were more fulfilling than anything she’d ever felt in her life…

Heather puts her head into her lap and runs her hands through her hair. What the hell was going on? She didn’t come to PDW to hook up with virtual strangers or feel strong emotions she couldn’t explain with another. She suddenly felt as though her being was in a tug of war with itself.

Heather lifts her head up, coming to a sudden decision. She reaches into her pocket and pulls out her cell phone. She presses the speed dial for the one person she could talk to that wouldn’t judge her, that would give her some rational thought on the subject. She waits patiently for the voice of sanity on the other line to pick up. She gets up and puts it on speaker as she begins to pace.

This is Dr. Angela Yee.

Doc… It’s Heather…. Heather Halliwell…

Heather! What a pleasant surprise. To what do I owe the pleasure?

Well…

Heather paces some more, trying to form her words.

Is everything alright in Philadelphia, Heather?

It is… or was… or maybe it still is and I’m just overreacting…

If you’re worried enough about something to call me, then something is troubling you and that means things are not okay.

Well Doc, I’m uh… I’m having man issues.

Heather! Already? It isn’t Steve Jason, is it? Or, god forbid, Sean Graves?

No… No, it’s not either one of them. Steve's not even around anymore and Sean disappeared before I even left WGWF. No, it’s actually two men that I just met…

Oh Heather, please tell me you haven’t relapsed into your promiscuous state.

No, not exactly… I mean, I did sleep with one of them just this past day or two…

You didn’t sleep with both?

No, just the one. And I feel like maybe we’re moving too fast? I barely know this man… I mean, I like him. We have common interests, we click really well… But I feel like moving this fast could lead to a relapse if things don’t quite work out.

I see. Heather, I won’t lie to you, the fact that you are already sleeping with a man you just met is a sign that you are giving in to your sexual needs and that is not progress. I know you miss human contact, I know you crave certain things, but part of recovery is being able to say no and walk away. I suggest you put a halt to the physical side of this relationship and focus on getting to know him before you continue to bed him. You know from experience that things go awry quickly when sex is brought in from the start.

Heather nods even though the doctor can’t see her. This was exactly what she had been thinking the entire way home, but she wanted her trusted doctor’s confirmation. So now she had something she had to do. She closed her eyes, hoping Benjamin wouldn’t take that too hard.

What about the other man?

Aaron… That was a whole different can of worms.

With Aaron… Like Benjamin, I barely know this guy. But both times we’ve met, we’ve managed to make the simplest of physical contact, hand holding… And both times, something happens…

Something happens? What exactly happens?

It’s like… It’s like the entire world around us stops and the only people left are him and me. I lose sense of everything. We stare into each other’s eyes and it’s like we can see into each other’s souls. It’s almost like being in love yet it’s something so much more profound than that… We both have something in our past that affects us very deeply, to the core… And we don’t judge each other on it. I crave being around him just to get that feeling again… It’s intoxicating, Doc. Every show, I want to seek him out and hope that something gives us a reason to touch again.

Heather… I’ve never heard of such a thing before. That kind of connection without knowing a person. That sounds almost dangerous. But in a strange way, healthier than falling into the bed of a man you don’t know. Simply put, I think you’re in a strange tug of war with yourself. You want physical passion, which you have turned to this Benjamin fellow for. But from what you described, you’re getting your emotional needs from the Aaron guy.

Pretty much sums it up, Doc.

Here’s what you need to do then. With Benjamin, you need to cut off the sex and I mean now. Get to know him, build a friendship, by all means flirt if you like. But don’t let him or allow yourself to be put into situations where one or the other can initiate sex. You need to know if you can trust this man. I’m sure it feels like you can because you are lonely and he gives you something you want, but you really don’t know if you can or not. You said it yourself, you don’t know him.

Well, that ought to be an interesting conversation.

As far as Aaron goes, my advice is really no different. But unless you MUST make physical contact with him, don’t. From the sounds of it, it’s more of a high, a rush, and that’s something else you don’t need right now. You’ll soon become so addicted the feeling a touch of his hand can give you that you will want something more, sooner rather than later. Get to know him, be his friend and just give it time.

Heather nods as the doctor puts the sensible advice into her head.

I’m going to come to Philadelphia soon to check in on you, Heather. I’m curious now. I want to see how you are interacting with those you were with in WGWF as well as these new people that have you so flustered.

Are you that worried, Doc?

I’m concerned, yes. I know you are strong, but the heart and soul can only take so much. You haven’t given yours a proper break yet, and if you fall into these patterns that you’ve described to me, you won’t get the healing you need.

Heather nods again, and the two finish their conversation. Heather hangs up and heads back to the couch and sinks into it again. Kingsley has finished at his food and water bowls and leaps up onto the couch next to her, resting his head on her stomach. He stares up at her with his big, brown doggie eyes, as if reading her thoughts. Heather smiles and scratches him behind the ears, finally losing herself to sleep…
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