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| Sisarien's Thoughts; Warning: male+male relationship content | |
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| Topic Started: Sep 2 2004, 07:19 PM (153 Views) | |
| Neriasis | Sep 2 2004, 07:19 PM Post #1 |
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Could it be possible that Neriasis no longer loves me? Did his pasion for a woman ruin his veiw of the world he once knew? I know it seems like alot of blame to put on one person, but no one knows how fragile Neriasis' mind can be. It's a thin line that he and I walk, and we use to walk together, hand in hand anlong this path. But now we seem to be drifting apart. And I don't know what it is that seperates us. Is it perhaps the elven maid Artanis? Though I've seen no threat in her. But what of Neriasis strange behavior? He kissed another, and I'm not sure what to make of it. Should I be worried even more then I am now that he may no longer love me? I'd like to blame our drifting on him becoming a god but I think I may only use that as a shield against the true reason. Often when we're sharing an intemiate moment he becomes violent and distant, and I end up having to leave the room. We've had fights before in the past, but never anything like this. I'm terrified of him now, more then I should be. Though I still tease and play with him on the outside, but on the inside I'm terrified that he might hurt me, or worse leave me to be alone and never wish to see me again. Artanis believes that Neriasis is just going through a difficult time with his godly duties. But some reason I just can't believe that. But on the inside I guess I do hope that's all it really is. I don't want to lose the relationship that we share. ~Sisairen~ |
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| Neriasis | Sep 17 2004, 04:51 AM Post #2 |
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Another day, another fight. And all I said was that it just didn't feel right having sex with a god. And he turns over and stares at me with his comanding crimson eyes and says: like you care who you have sex with. I was devestated that he would say such a thing to me. I have been nothing but loyal to him. He should know that I'd do anything for him. Inplus he's the one who has kissed another man, and from what I've heard, even asked a woman to marry him! It's just not right. I'm not sure just how long I can accept a man who is so deceptive. But I won't leave him, I can't. I love him too much. I know I should be mad, I know I should leave him, but I just can't. He's the only one who understands me and accepts me. Maybe there's something he's afraid of. I only wish I knew what. ~Sisairen~ |
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| Neriasis | Sep 18 2004, 09:28 PM Post #3 |
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Hmm, libaries not a good idea. Even if it is in a private location with few visators there always seems to be someone there just at the wrong time, mainly Artanis. That little prick of an elf. Everytime that Neriasis and me are actually in a mutal agreement of mood and sexual activity, she seems to pop out of no where. Sometimes I wonder if she isn't the reason that Neriasis has been so distant these last few days, although not so much in the sack. Anyway, like I said in the begining, the libary. Probable the worst place we could have started something like we did. So it was no wonder that the door would open and there would be Artanis. Though it did please me to see her face pale so, I think she was about to faint. But she did manage to yell a string of curses at me before storming off to her room. And might I note she only yelled at me, when it was clearly Neriasis who had been the instigator of the event. Well that's what has happened today. Not as bad as the past few days but still not so good. ~Sisairen~ |
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| Neriasis | Sep 23 2004, 06:53 PM Post #4 |
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Artanis, though annyoing as she can sometimes be, is awfully smart for a female. Of corse I would expect females to be better at make overs then any male gay or not. Her idea was form me to get a bit of an outside change to boost my confidence. Now normally I would have shruged this notion off, but she made a very good argument, of corse using my love for Neriasis against me wasn't very nice of her. So she died my hair silver, using a mixture of dragon's blood and crushed griffin's bones. Also she for some reason had to file my nails, she said something about them being too rough, and then she painted them black. I dunno what her thought process is but I'm hoping that it works. ~Sisairen~ |
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| Neriasis | Dec 29 2004, 06:04 PM Post #5 |
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Little purple angel-God of Order
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Oh what have I done! I'm such an idiot. But I just couldn't stand it any longer. Between the constant changes of Neriasis personality and his fawning over Tsuki I just couldn't handle it anymore. I love the guy dearly but I just couldn't see that love in his eyes anymore. What did I see? I think all I could see was anger and lust. What's wrong with him! What could he possibly see in that thin, hemophiliac necromancer. Even if Tsuki was to submit to Neriasis, doesn't Neriasis know that it'd potentionally murder? Sure he can be gentle and caring, but that's not how he likes it, I should know. Over 400 years and just now I've realized just what Neriasis is. He's just a bastard, he just wanted to use me. But I did so enjoy it, the feeling of being needed by someone. I should have realized it couldn't last. We never really talked to each other, at least not about important things. Please someone just tell me where I went wrong, even though I'm the one who left him. It just feels like the other way around. I still need him...no I want him. He's just so perfect in the way he does things. How can I ever hope to find someone else. ~Sisairen |
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